Last week I was in Malmo, Sweden on a SYD choreographic residency hosted by in-discourse. I found myself, whilst in the process of us creating this new piece, in a space where I was able to step back and really reflect on the road I am walking down.
As a young dancer I feel I am constantly wanting to advance, train harder, focusing on the goal of improving, developing and being successful. I feel there is such pressure on dancers to be successful, we worry about what the industry wants, how we look, whether we are wanted and fit the required aesthetic. We churn out as much sweat and hard work as we can. But is it honest?
We have choreographic movement and then we put a style on top of it, a professional performance quality and energetic intensity. This is what I had been exploring. But now I have been seriously challenged.
The intense style with which I am most familiar with is not enough for me or what Lee is exploring for the direction of this new narrative piece.
Following some characterisation work with Khamlane Halsackda, I became even more focused on the integrity of my movement and understanding of what Lee wanted me to explore in relation to the piece.
My comfort zone is not the character I am trying to portray. I have been deeply exploring a new world of expression, I have been feeling far more vulnerable, scared and tearful at times in this creation period.
What is beginning to rise from this process is a new path that I can turn onto in my expressive endeavours. I am excited to say, that I feel as though I have just started a new journey, or rather been redirected by a new chapter. I am very excited as a young artist to see how far I can take this, how much can I grow?
On top of this I am so excited to see the individual paths that all my SYD colleagues and close friends can and will travel.
How many more new paths and shifts can we all make within ?
What for me, had always seemed to be a far more linear road to success as a dancer... as now got me thinking, maybe there are no roads at all?